50 Days to 50 - Strength to Push Through

Days 15, 16 and 17

"Sometimes" Pooh said "The smallest things
take up the most room in your heart"

This is one of those weeks of my life I will never forget

I'm not sure if I want to if that even makes sense

It wasn't memorable for the right reasons

No one has been able to make sense of it

We've all tried

He was full term

8 lbs 1 oz, 21 inches long

Plump arms, perfect hands and feet

He is gone

No one could stop it

It is still hard to believe

Today we said our goodbyes

Doctors, nurses, friends and family gathered

We cried together and we cried some more

This was an infant

There was no funny stories

No anecdotes from his life

We prayed, we mourned and we comforted

I conducted my first infant funeral

We sent balloons to the sky

Now we look for purpose

We lean on each other for strength

We push past the whys

We hold on to hope

We rejoice that one day, we will see him again

He will be whole

Always,

Hope

(NOTE: This is my Jubilee year. Scripture speaks of this year as a time for restoration and debts to be cancelled. I see it as a time to reflect and to count my blessings. Knowing how precious life is and how miraculous it is, I want to write about His goodness.)